It’s pretty obvious why I don’t post pictures of my five year old daughter on my blog, considering it’s a blog about us rebuilding our lives after she was sexually abused. I don’t have a Facebook, Instagram or any personal social media accounts for exactly the same reason. We disappeared from our old life, and […]
It’s been 6 months?! I’ve been a mummy for 6 months already?! I still pinch myself at the thought sometimes. So much has happened in such a short space of time and it’s not just been physical, but more so mentally, spiritually, emotionally and possibly even egotistically.
I came across this quote a little while back;
“In giving birth to our babies, we may find that we give birth to new possibilities within ourselves.” – Myla and Jon Kabat-Zinn
The first time I read it, I felt nothing, it meant nothing to me. It was just one of those quotes you read and thought…”meh…whatever…” However, after connecting with motherhood and reading this quote multiple times over, I find that I’m deeply connected to the words more so now than ever before. I find myself exploring ideas and new ventures that I had never even considered before. They say the mindset of a woman changes when she becomes a mother and boy don’t I know it now??!!! Billions of women have ventured before us and found their way and that’s just what it’s been….their way. What I realise is that you can read every book, talk to all the other mum’s at classes and soft plays but whether they’re experienced or not, they might provide you with some direction but not necessarily THE ANSWER. The answers are our own job to find…you have to find what’s right for you and your child. We’ll try everything. We’ll fail at some things. We’ll mess up a few times. Possibly feel lost 50-100% of the time. Feeling overwhelmed more than you care to concede. You might even feel like you are spending a lot of time driving through thick clouds of fog just trying to fiercely to find your way.
As I watch Iman these days I have a hard time believing that it wasn’t so long ago that I held her for the first time, that I bathed her for the first time and those first few breastfeeding weeks weren’t that long ago. Motherhood has been an amazing journey for me. As someone who has always been excited about the prospect of having children but also self-focused on my career. I had always hoped and prayed that this time would work out for me. There have been big ups and downs and these are things that I plan to talk about in future posts, but more than anything I look back at photos from the days of pregnancy, birth and the first few weeks and I see a beautiful new version of myself. Iman has changed me in all the best ways possible. I’m so happy that I haven’t lost myself anywhere along the lines. Instead, I’m here feeling as if I am more of myself than I ever thought I could be. I feel I have all strong handle on who I am becoming in this new role. I like this Latifah far better, irrespective of the journey that brought me here.
Being a mother is amazing but it has its challenging moments. Though I haven’t struggled with PND or PPA, I’m pleased to say that I’ve been able to offer support to women I know that have. Over the last 6 months, I have been able to share real honest and raw details of our motherhood experiences with other new and experienced mum’s. We’ve celebrated the big things and the little things to support one another without judgement through the hardest things. From fussy nights, to postpartum depression to breastfeeding ending sooner than hoped to finding the balance as mum’s and career women or entrepreneurs to physical recoveries to vaccinations and weaning. I have grown to really appreciate the importance of friends who are there for you without judgement, who believe the same things, who fight for the same things with their child or children and are there for you no matter what!
Irrespective of the journey over the last 6 months. I have never felt more complete in my life. Iman’s developing awareness of the world around her is exhilarating and I know it won’t be much longer before I’m chasing her around the place. I’d say I’ve hit a point where I’m learning to loosen the reigns and let her explore and figure things out for herself even at this young age. I see parts of her personality showing and I know it’s only going to get better and better. She lights up my world every day that I feel like I could explode. No matter what, she will always be the No.1 love of my life. My focus has shifted to wanting to build a life that is all about providing her with the greatest life I can and that itself creates so much clarity in life. Therefore, surrounding myself with people that make me better, is a key part of my motherhood journey.
Iman has always been and will always be my calm during the storm. I can’t necessarily put it into words but every time I look at her, I know everything will be just fine. I’m enjoying every second of every day with her and looking forward to all the next development leaps.
So mum’s and dad’s, how did you feel at 6 months? Anything trying or hard about this time? What would you say has been your best part thus far?
If you have a question please add it below!!!